21 Years Gone and still counting..

Moved !!!

2006-11-02T06:01:00.000-08:00

My blog has moved to www.simpleorboringlife.blogspot.com

Back from Hong Kong.

2006-09-16T16:05:00.000-07:00

Back from Hong Kong..

Came back from HK and got my results.. Did really badly compared to some of my new found friends in TA27 ad I really hate it.. Nobody like to lose and out of 4 who went to HK, I lost to 3 of them and they are not the best in their class.. So there something for me to think about.. I really wasted this semester away and im not going to repeat the same mistake again.. 3.5 every sem is simply not enough.. I aiming for 3.8 for the next 3 sems..

HK Trip

Day 1

Woke up early in the morning and took a cab to Changi Airport and got a hell lot of experience during the ride.. The taxi driver was basically driving half asleep.. The taxi was moving like how a snake will move ard and it scare the hell out of me.. I could count myself lucky to arrive in Changi Airport in one piece...

The flight took ard 3 and a half hour and we touched down in HK at about 130pm.. Forgot where we went in the afternoon but we went to the Avenue of Stars in the evening where you could see the hand prints of almost all the famous celebrity in HK.. Watched the Symphony of Light and I thought it was disappointing..

We then booked in to our hotel after welcome dinner organised by the tour guide and went visit the famous Ladies Street..

I will blog the rest later..

Been Worrying..

2006-08-29T21:00:00.000-07:00

Been Worrying..

I been worrying since I made that 2 bloody mistakes in my cost accounting papers.. Considering that fact that there really 1 question that I din know how to do, I may fail that paper cos of the 2 big big mistakes that no one should have made.. 6k i put 600.. Actual MOH given in question and i DIN see it.. What worse can happen to me??? There is, MY GPA going to suffer and I may FAIL that module which means i may REPEAT..

Really hope that dun happpen and I can continue to progress with my class to yr 2 sem 2 in the main stream.. I just hope for a pass now for cost accounting.. I dun mind losing my director list place and my gpa suffer.. All these I pretty sure I can fight back.. I just dun want to repeat and lose the company of all my buddies in TA28..

The worst thing is that I could only know the result on the 15th Sep which is after that HK trip and I hope it wont spoil my mood during the trip.. And yeah, since im flying back on the 15th as well, I might just jump off the plane when I realised I fail cost accounting so please let me pass..

These are the result that I aim for after taking the exams:

Cost Accounting ---- D (Pass will do though hope for a C, B will be a miracle)
IFA --- A (considering my test result, AD gg to be hard)
FMGT --- B+ ( A will be a bonus cos i din do well on theory)
Auditing --- B+ (Hope for a A cos if not GPA sure drop like siao cos cost la)
EAA --- A
I&E --- Pass

So let see what result i will post on 15th Sep..

Exam Coming Fast & Furious..

2006-08-16T20:52:00.000-07:00

Exam Coming Fast & Furious..

Okay next monday, I will be starting my first exam on FMGT.. Cool.. But the fact is that I had only studied for my IFA.. Just dunno why.. I just seem to be interested in pulling out my IFA notes and past yr papers.. I kinda finished practising half on IFA, mainly GST, partnership, bills of exchange and payroll.. Im left with company accounting and theory and some recap for the paper.. Hope I can still get an A for that module...

Today supposed to be the day to revise cost accounting but given the slack nature of me myself, the revision of cost accounting has been postponed to next week where I will have 1.5 day to study for it.. Aiya not much time left and I have auditing and FMGT to worry about also.. Anyway, I think I starting on auditing after blogging..

I dun really feel comfortable on whether I could achieve the same GPA as last sems.. It all seems more difficult after my test results.. Hai who else to blame but myself.. To think that I could only manage a B (Just hit the B mark) for test in IFA and auditing.. It just left me with plenty more work to be done exams which sadly to say, I haven did anything bout it yet.. It becoming more stressful as each day passes by..

I really hope I could get the same grades as before.. Hopefully 1AD, 2A and 2B+ for this exam but seriously speaking, my only chance of AD came from FMGT and I haven done anything about it.. Holy shit.. Maybe 3A and 2B+ will be fine.. Or 2A and 3B+.. I dunno but I just wan to keep my place in the director's list..

August 1st Post..

2006-08-10T19:56:00.000-07:00

August 1st Post..

Just 2 more days to my 22nd birthday.. It hard to imagine im staring at the big 30 now.. Holy S.H.I.T... Whatever it is, I will grow one yr older and I no longer have to put the triangle plate when i drive (not that I did it all the time haha..)..

Oops.. Did I just invite the TP to come after me???
Oh oh oh.. Make it clear.. I seldom put it cos I rarely drive.. I dun have a car dude.. It be nice if anyone could get me a RX8 or Nissan z350 for my birthday.. I would love that person till forever and ever man (just for the sake of that car)..

Anyway, go watch CLICK.. You will love it..

Not Knowing Where to Start..

2006-07-25T20:18:00.000-07:00

Not Knowing Where to Start..

Exams are just around the corner and I seriously have no idea what am I doing about it??? I told myself to stay back in school and do some work but I have not done so for the past 2 days.. I began to do some tutorial but that simply is not enough I feel.. Dun know where to start but I just have to start somehow with that tiny little bit of motivation..

Come to think of it, I seriously miss her..

Exam Targets..

2006-07-24T20:55:00.000-07:00

Exam Targets..

Exams are coming in 1 month time and I usually have the habit to set myself targets before it.. Considering my test results, I would be damn happy to maintain my GPA.. I just wanna still be in the director's list..

These are what I hope to get:

Financial Management --- AD (My only real shot at AD)
Intermediate Financial Accounting --- A (This is going to be hard)
Cost Accounting --- A
Auditing --- B+
EAA --- A
I&E --- Passed

Chinese..

2006-07-19T22:55:00.000-07:00

该对谁说

我看着你
眼视似乎适应了晚暗
但是对你的焦距却越来越远
一直到现在我才发现
爱你跟不爱你却是不能假装

HongKong Trip..

2006-07-16T20:30:00.000-07:00

HongKong Trip..

Hai si bei sian.. Im only preliminarily selected for the HongKong trip and there will be a verification and acceptance on 26th July. The problem is that my father is earning inconsistent income depending on the projects his boss bid for. As such, the information that I gave may not be the same as my dad is earning more this month. Sian.. Getting an employer letter may be a problem as well hai.. Hope my dad can get his employer letter by 26th July and hopefully the amount wont differ as much..

Cos I really wanna go to the HongKong trip.. Hope the verification process is not that strict.. Anyway, Im paying for the trip so it doesn't really matter what my dad income is right.. What matters is my income and I should get the full subsidy..

Going HongKong and Into the Semis..

2006-07-15T12:12:00.000-07:00

Going HongKong and Into the Semis..

Although we are making losses throughout the competition, we still managed to get into the semi final to be held next tuesday.. Which means more works to be done and I have to leave my plans to start my exam revision.. Cos I really feel i need to start work on all my modules cos I dun feel very confident at all especially cost accounting..

It also quite nice to know that im selected for the HongKong study trip.. It just mean one of my resolution will be achieved once I touch the ground of HK haha.. Looking forward for it but first, the semi final and exams...

Loss, Loss & More Loss

2006-07-13T09:09:00.000-07:00

Loss, Loss & More Loss

Been making more loss.. Si bei sian.. It the same "sian"ness when you cant balance your Balance Sheet for accounting modules.. But anyway, we are left with 1 more period and we are done with the competition.. Hooray..

SIM Competition

2006-07-10T23:06:00.000-07:00

SIM Competition

That competition is a mighty killer.. Of all the brain cells that you could have.. I really feel we need experience to do well in the competition cos I really feel that our group is a group of NOOBS being sent straight into the corporate world without knowing exactly what we should do.. Hope everything goes well too but I dun have high hopes for it.. Maybe we could try again in out final year when we had the experience le..

Away from the serious stuffs now..

As expected by many, Italy won the World Cup.. The match will be remembered as one in which Zidane gift the Italian the Cup with his head.. How true.. A player like him shouldn't be doing that.. Anyway, he got the golden ball player of the world cup despite his head butt and I really dun understand why..

Cannavaro should be the one getting the reward.. Come on, which defender in the world can safely say he has keep the like of Henry, Klose (top scorer of WC), Podolokis and some other top strikers out of their game in the world cup.. Only him man.. He the only one.. Not forgetting he only 1.75m tall but he doesn't fail to win headers if need to..

Im totally amazed by what he can do lah considering I played as a defender as well if I do decide to exercise from time to time.. I wanna get his jersey, only if it of reasonable price cos I really dun wish to spend now.. Pocket been tight..

Down On My Luck...

2006-07-07T22:30:00.000-07:00

Down On My Luck...

I dunno why im feeling this but im certainly feeling down on luck.. Played when I shouldn't and din play when I should have.. What can I say???? Pure suayness.. Now, I have to really watch my expenses and look after my wallet...

Watching Jennifer Love Hewitt on Ghost Whisper and she is cute though getting old...

What's Wrong With Me???

2006-07-06T21:07:00.000-07:00

What's Wrong With Me???

Dun really know which screw in my brain gone loose and I placed so much a bet ytd.. Lost quite a big sum of money and it hard to swallow it down.. I overshoot my budget for the world cup by quite a lot.. I dunno what to say but life goes on.. Been really down these few days in my heart although I do not seems to show it...

I really need to get myself a job now, considering that fact that I have receive no news on whether my tutee still wan me to tutor her and my savings are depleting at a alarming rate.. Need to cut down on my expenditures and the World Cup hasn't been helping... And I realised my most of my 2006 resolutions are not going to be met.. What a year then !!!

Been really down twice in recent two months.. On both occassions, i msg her for that little comfort that she could give but she din reply me for both.. Guess I know how much I meant to her.. Definitely not as much as she is to me...

Cost Accounting..

2006-07-04T22:33:00.000-07:00

Cost Accounting..

Exams time table are out.. For those ppl from TA28 visiting my blog.. Here the time table..

21 August (9-11am) --- FMGT
22 August (9-11am) --- Auditing
23 August (2-4pm) --- IFA
25 August (2-4pm) --- Cost Accounting

Im really poor at Cost accounting and IFA now so really need to get down to work..
However, I need plenty plenty of motivation..
From someone, somehow, somewhat..
Or even just a clear knock of sense on my head to wake me up..

She seems happy and enjoying her life now..
Perhaps i should just try to get her off my mind and leave her alone...
I no longer call her and my sms to her are getting lesser,
but i miss her more..
This remain the only way to tell her how I feel still..

I&E Stall..

2006-07-03T20:18:00.000-07:00

I&E Stall..

It was just bad.. Real bad.. No sales at all..
Maybe it got to do with the pricing but magic items cant be that cheap right..
My apology to Kenneth who performed all those nice tricks but no one bought his stuffs..
Sorry..

The sight of her is enough to make me realise how much I like her still.. She always there in my mind.. But the thing is IM NOT in hers..
Im like waiting for lost cause cos it pretty clear I dun stand a chance..
Not even a tiny bit to look forward for..
Yet, Im still thinking of her....

A Day When Favourites Flop..

2006-07-02T22:22:00.000-07:00

A Day When Favourites Flop..

Yesterday was the Day.. All my favourites flop in their sports..
England lost out on penalties again to Portugal..
Andy Roddick lost to Murray in Wimbledon 3rd round..

As a result, I lost about $90 buck now which is kind of sad.. (Not considering I lost in Billiard today as well.. My biggest lost for a long long while..)

Hai.. Got back my cost accounting test marks and I got what I expected.. I already knew where im wrong at after the test and the tutor just din show any leniency.. To think that other class have students who score 46/50 makes me wonder what am I doing actually???

And after that question, there always be the greatest excuse of mine:" There always the exams to catch up." However, that is if your competitors slip and fall as well which is the hard thing..

Fortune Enough..

2006-06-29T22:42:00.000-07:00

Fortunate Enough..

Got back 3 of my test papers and I must be glad with my results.. At least I din get any C grade for any test..

Audit: 14/20%
which is what I expected
FMGT: 16.2/20%
which is kind of surprised to know
IFA: 14/20%
I expect worse but I aim not to get any grade below A for all my accounting modules so I have to really work on this..

Will be getting back my cost acc test marks and according to our lecturer, we din do very well.. However, it is my most confident test haha.. Im just glad to know Im still in at a shot for AD and A for all my modules..

I just hate to lose...

Getting back Results..

2006-06-26T22:53:00.000-07:00

Getting back Results..

Very soon, I will get back all my test papers and see how bad I have done.. And then, I can really weigh how much hard work I must put in more to try maintain my gpa.. Last sems was hard but I managed to maintain it but this sems, I dun think I be that lucky if my common tests marks are what I predicted or even less.. Sianzzz.. I just hope for a GPA of 3.5 for this sems.. Shit..

Im always happy whenever I see her in the past.. But now dunno for what reason, my heart hurts whenever I see her.. It just like a poison that u can do nothing about.. She the poison and the cure.. How ironic and ridiculous.. But that what love can do to you..

Ideal Girl..

2006-06-26T03:10:00.000-07:00

Ideal Girl..

Nothing to blog anyway so not been blogging recently.. Saw a girl close to my ideal today and I found myself keep looking at her... Nice hair at a comfortable length, petite, beautiful eyes, healthy nice skin colour and she speaks really well.. Look very cute and lovely when she speaks.. And her smile can melt any guy hearts.. Maybe tat my ideal girl but then again, I dun think I have the fortune to have a girl like her..

No confidence??? Whatever u wanna say.. This sort of girls got plenty of choices and by just being nice is not gd enough.. Looks then come into the picture and that why my confidence is damn low.. Nowadays, it just not enough being nice to the girl you like.. Having gd looks is a big plus plus.. I dunno why im saying this anyway.. I dun even know her..

Maybe if I look like Edison or Lee Hom, I definitely got her phone number if I approach her but that is a big IF in front.. Now you can see the difference right.. Anyway, I just realised all my sec 1 buddies have their loved ones already and they may wanna arrange a gathering with gf along.. What am i supposed to do then? Think just find some excuse and skip the gathering cos they know i dun have any gf anyway..

Lost Someone..

2006-06-18T03:41:00.000-07:00

Lost Someone..

My San Gu passed away this wednesday.. Dunno what happening to my relatives this year.. First my cousin with his brain operation and now my San gu passed away after fighting cancer for almost 5 years.. Will be going to send her off tml..

I sms her when I heard the news, hoping she could lift my spirit abit but she din reply..

Project, Project & Project...

2006-06-15T23:53:00.000-07:00

Project, Project & Project...

Been enjoying my holiday so far with some exciting world cup matches and the class BBQ so far.. There still more to come with the gathering with my sec 1 buddies and K-Box tml with my army brothers.. Haha..

However, I also realised I have yet to touch on any of my projects to be done during the holidays.. EAA, Fmgt "creative" presentation, and of course my I&E.. Guess I have to start soon, probably on saturday.. Should start planning for EAA project cos I really have no clue about how to do it..

For now, its time for England VS T&T..

Come on England !!!

My World Cup Journey..

2006-06-13T22:04:00.000-07:00

My World Cup Journey..

Been following the world cup recently.. It just weird that when I have decided not to side the favourites this time round, they have to win.. For example, Germany & Italy.. And when I side with them, they will lost their handicap like England & Portugal.. I have nothing to say..

Now my overall result shows a negative sign which is kind of shit... My TOTO winnings are gone basically but I hope I will make a comeback.. Dun worry man.. Im playing within my limits.. It just not as exciting watching a match whereby the outcome doesn't concern you.. Haha.. Once every 4 years should be ok ba haha..

Wish me LUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its Over or Is it the Start???

2006-06-09T21:56:00.000-07:00

Its Over or Is it the Start???

Both true.. The dreadful (mainly because how I fare) common test is finally over with the end of cost accounting finishing it off.. However, its the start of preparing for my final exam.. I still hope to achieve just 2 B and A for the rest of my modules.. Its hard but I will do my best to achieve it.. I still got 80% to fight for so why should I give up now..

That not my character and I will nvr give up..

For whatever or whoever..

Every little msg here indicates that im missing you.. For now, I can only keep my feelings here to myself.. The chances are slim but I dun like to give up and I wont till another someone special came along..

But no matter what, we still best of friends.. I still treat you like someone very close to me...

Oh My God..

2006-06-08T20:22:00.000-07:00

Oh My God..

I just realised all my tests are going to get C grade, the one I hated most.. Maybe it because of the low percentage (2/20% means a drop in grade).. I hate it.. NOOOOOOOOOOOO !!!!

The good thing is I place a wager on TOTO after the 3 tests in spite of anger and I won abit of money.. Dunno whether it good considering the fact that I must do badly for test for this unexpected small fortune..

Provision for Doubtful Debts...

2006-06-08T13:55:00.000-07:00

Provision for Doubtful Debts...

OMFG !!!! Third test in a row where I made mistakes I shouldn't have made.. and it got to do with provision for doubtful debts again.. What the hell am I doing??? After the 3 test, these are the scores I hope to get..

IFA = 32.5/50 (13/20 %)
Audit = 42/60 (14/20 %)
FMGT = 32.5/50 (13/20 %)

However all tests are relatively easy..

Yeah, Im only hoping for a B or even C grade cos I really did that badly.. Made too many mistakes to my liking and all are stupid mistakes which are not forgivable.. But I will learn.. I can still get my A for overall.. Why not?? There still 80% to fight for.. Somemore my friend got a B+ before after just failing his common test.. So if he can do it, why not me..

The only difference is I need to put in efforts for all my modules as compared to his only one test but I think I can do it.. Im not giving up my place as yet...

Bring on Cost Accounting but I really gave up on this common test le.. I can forget about challenging vivian or jingwen liao I guess.. They will be too far ahead after these common tests..

BLOODY SHIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im Losing My Touch..

2006-06-07T14:47:00.000-07:00

Im Losing My Touch..

Finished my audit test this morning but I dun think I could get an A for the test.. Made a few mistakes in understanding the questions but should be able to get a B grade in the worst situation which is not that bad compared to IFA.. However, it just means that I have to put in extra efforts for my final exam. Otherwise, the result is simple, I wont get into Director List with this kind of results..

Fairly speaking, I din not put in enough efforts in all these tests after IFA.. I simply just read the notes and din do any past year questions or even go through tutorial.. Unfortunately, there a theory question in the test which is exactly the same as the tutorial question.. WTF !!!!

Hai.. Dun really want to talk about it.. I used to challenge the very top in my class.. And now, no disrespect to yongan, Im struggling to even compete with yongan.. I may lose to him for both my audit and IFA test which is shit.. I need to regain my touch.. But the question is HOWWWWW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She always in my mind but maybe I should just forget about her.. She happy with what she got and I should feel happy for her.. Anything else is just a bonus, it okay not to have it..

No Mood to Study...

2006-06-06T10:39:00.000-07:00

No Mood to Study...

After what happen to IFA, I really couldn't find the mood to study for the rest of my tests.. Keep using tml as the perfect excuse and now, TML will be my Audit test.. What worse is that this time round, there no break in between before the next test.. FMGT on thurs & Cost Acc on friday.. I really hope all this end soon but it definitely not going to be a good ending to it if I still dun start studying..

Actually, I read through audit notes once yesterday but I seriously doubt if anything went into my mind.. There are still many unnecessary thoughts floating in my mind which is kind of bad when im so close to test period..

Think Im going to do damn bad for this common test.. I hope I can do something fast to change it..

Missing Her..

Bad Day !!!

2006-06-04T00:58:00.000-07:00

Bad Day !!!

I couldn't get to sleep.. I think I need to get rid of this bad habit of keep thinking about the mistakes i made after tests.. Yup, IFA test still bothers me.. It doesn't make things better that I realised I left my jacket in the exam hall, totally forgetting it.. What better way to end off with knowing the girl you like actually beginning to love someone else more.. I gave up really so stop torturing me pls (to whoever plan this day for me)

The only gd thing about today is that I din die.. Maybe I should be glad about that ya..

Screwed Up..

2006-06-03T16:59:00.000-07:00

Screwed Up..

Ya.. I screwed up my IFA paper today.. I just dunno what the hell am I doing with my mistakes like wrong provision and din have journal entries for redeemable shares.. I will really be glad if I get 35/50.. At least Im still at a B grade.. But I wont be surprised if I get lower but I certainly dun wish it happening.. If not I definitely wont get my A grade that I aim for for IFA..

Today is just a farked up day.. I need to get over it soon.. This is bad..

A encouragement from someone special doesn't work out today..

Im Sorry!!!

2006-06-01T17:35:00.000-07:00

Im Sorry!!!

Guess im just a big mouth who cant keep secrets.. Im sorry, weichoo..

Long Timeout..

2006-05-31T23:05:00.000-07:00

Long Timeout..

Been a long while since I last blog.. There nothing really to blog about anyway.. Every day is like a routine to me nowadays.. It may sound serious to some of you out there but I look at it another way -- Having a routine life make surprises that happen to you more fun and interesting.. Haha.. Maybe that just an excuse but whatever it is, the truth remains.. Hmmm.. Holidays will be here soon and I think I should add some spice to my life..

However, before the holidays, there always the thing called "TESTS".. And I dunno why am I still blogging away when my first test is just 2 days away and I haven start a shit on it.. I will study later la (it ok if this sound doubtful to you cos it is to me too haha)..

Hai, nothing really happen these few weeks beside those lectures and tutorials, watching some movies (btw X-men 3 is better than Da Vinci Code to me), thinking & missing someone close to my heart (& reminder not the other way round though) and of course, large part of SLACKING.. Im a slacker duh so there nothing wrong with that.. Not till I found out that im growing horizontally significantly which is bad..

I was bathing just now and I realised there's two lumps of flesh around my waist-line when I put my hands on it and I can grab it.. OMFG!!! That is bad cos the amount of flesh i can grab is astonishing.. It alot la and im beginning to worry (now i know why she said im fat the other time).. I knew I have grow heavier but certainly not to the extent of being fat but maybe im wrong.. Look like I just have to work harder in gym and start doing more exercises during the holidays.. If not very soon, you will see a short and fat Celestian.. WTF.. I cant imagine myself being that way.. ARGHHH!!!

Can anyone help?
Yes, the person is ME myself..

EAA Test Was BAD...

2006-05-18T22:49:00.000-07:00

EAA Test Was BAD...

EAA yesterday was really horrible and terrible.. I really dunno wat to say.. I not being mean here but I kinda hope the rest dun do so well either so I may still have a chance of getting at least a B grade overall.. The test is 25% and it huge la so really have to do well if not my record will soon be broken.. And by a computing module yet again haiz.. I wonder if im in computing, I may even be out of school now..

Was in real bad mood ytd after the test but at least I have my Mei to complain to and I felt better after that.. Thanks girl..

Talking about today..

Heard that myIFA common test will be on a saturday 3 June which means im left with 2 more weeks to study a module I still do not fully understand as yet so the urgency is coming again.. Sian.. Im feeling the stress coming back to haunt me.. The worst thing is that we do not have a study week before exams now for this term so it kind of shit now...

Arghhh.. Please help.. I need to start studying soon liao.. OMG!!!

Why? Why?? Why???

2006-05-16T19:40:00.000-07:00

Why? Why?? Why???

I always thought I could do it and but I can't. The feeling is back to haunt me again. Though it not as lasting as before, its still feels terrible.. I really hope the pain will subside as time passes by.. I simply hate the feeling.. Why can't I do it???

My Different Name..

2006-05-15T09:44:00.000-07:00

My Different Name..

Went surfing the net in the morning and found out some of the different names that I will be called in different countries.. It turn out quite nice too..

Apparantly my French name is Roland Chenier
If I have a Rock Band it be named Alien Tulips according to my name
and the best of all

My Brazilian Name which i like a lot:
Alexandre Peixe

Alexandre is COOL..

Happy Mother's Day

2006-05-14T17:27:00.000-07:00

Happy Mother's Day

To all the people out there.. It time to say Happy Mother's Day to your mum haha.. HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MAMA !!!!!!!!!!

All My Feelings for the Day...

2006-05-13T18:27:00.000-07:00

All My Feelings for the Day...

This is how I feel while taking my IPPT today..

For sit up : "Cool.. Its easy" (5 points) *ding ding ding*
shuttle run : "Phew.. Heng ah" (4 points)

Here comes my poorer stations...

Chin up : "Wa Piangz so high" (0 Point) *Dun laugh it not easy*
Board jump : "Wah Lau so far" (0 Point) *Okay im short but so what*

To those who thinking of going to take ippt without training then i urge you to think thrice.. Once you see the chin up bar you will faint..

Somehow.. Somewhat.. Somewhere.. Sometimes..
Im thinking of her.. Just happen to float around in my mind but I guess that normal if she a girl you once love.. The feeling getting lesser but it still be there till time takes it all away..

Long Weekend..

2006-05-12T08:30:00.000-07:00

Long Weekend..

Its Vesak Day today and we will have a long weekend.. Many people will love it.. Couples will have more time for one another and I'm just going to spend it alone just like any other holidays or such but what to do??

The girl I love got herself a new bf and I'm not even in contention when she broke up.. Im only good enough to be a brother to her so I have to carry on the journey down the road alone.. I hope for a companion as well but if I'm to be alone, I just have to accept it and move on.. No one not afraid of lonely but you just got to deal with it..

To all the people out there:
Treasure your love ones and enjoy the long weekend ahead..

Top 10 Break Up Lines

2006-05-11T20:14:00.000-07:00

Top 10 Break Up Lines

1. Looking back at the years that we've been together, I can't help but wonder: What was I thinking?

2. I must admit, you brought religion into my life. I never believed in hell until I met you.

3. Before you go, I would like you to take the knife out of my back. You'll probably need it again.

4. When we were together, you always said you would die for me. Now that we've broken up, I think it's time you kept your promise.

5. Congratulations on your new bundle of joy. Did you ever find out who the father was?

6. I've always wanted to have someone to hold and love. After meeting you, I've changed my mind.

7. Some day I hope to get married, but not to you.

8. You are such a good friend that if we were on a sinking ship and there was only one life-jacket, I'm going to miss you and think of you often.

9. We have been dating for a very long time. What do you say we call it quits?

10. As the days go by, I think of how lucky I am that you're not here to ruin it for me.

Is She the One???

2006-05-10T19:08:00.000-07:00

Is She the One???

Elloz.. Im back blogging and quite often recently.. The reasons are simple.. Either im happy or I have plenty to complain about, especially after school started..

To start with, I guess I wont feel any more of those heart-breaking pain in future cos I somehow realised she not the one for me.. No sour grapes here but I feel we are really better off as very good friends after knowing her better in one way or another.. She cute but i dun only look for cute girls ya.. Ok lah, maybe Im not gd enough for her too haha.. But we very close friends..

Anyway, my dad bought an uZAP ytd in a bid to cure his backpain.. I dont really see how it works but I got myself 2 T-shirts for free so that doesn't matter haha.. That the happy part..

Now for the complaints..

First, I really have to whine abit about the EAA tutor again.. I just feel he doesn't really know what he is teaching and that he cant even control the class.. Can u imagine a tutor who has to switch off the lights before he could gain the class attention??? That bloody pathetic.. I really feel my grades are in great jeopardy for this module.. What worse is that, I be having an online test on this module next week.. Can anyone just offer a helping hand??? I seriously need it..

Not only that.. I simply feel Im getting more and more confused about my FFA and INFA knowledge after the exams.. Guess I need some recap on these 2 important modules.. I really need to instill all the knowledge in my mind forever haha..

Ok mates, I still got 2 tutorials to rush and i got to go liao...

To my mei if you saw this.. Think about what I told you in msn ya.. If you really feel you doing things right, jiu dun brood about it anymore.. Get on with it and enjoy your new relationship.. It always nicer to be loved than to love someone..

EAA Lessons Are Hell..

2006-05-09T12:41:00.000-07:00

EAA Lessons Are Hell..

Im now having my EAA lesson and its HELL... Can somebody help me???? I wanna change class for EAA cos the tutor simply SUCKS...

Back Blogging..

2006-05-06T08:49:00.000-07:00

Back Blogging..

Yoz, im back after quite some time.. Dunno what happen to my laptop it just cant seems to go to my blog website.. Anyway here I am doing some upates...

Obviously school had started like 2 weeks ago and I have to say im rather blur about all my modules.. The tutors are all fine to me except one (TA28 will know wh0) haha.. Cant name it here after I found out Mrs Lim manage to find my blog while surfing the net so it be shit if that tutor found mine haha.. If i were to choose, I think I kind of like auditing more than IFA haha..

Went for class outing ytd having pizza at marina square.. We walked to the "Durians" after our dinner and I must say the night scene there are really nice.. It my first time up there actually.. Cannot blame me it like the ppl up there are all couple and I no gf ma so din go haha.. Played some games before heading home and I only reached home ard 12 midnight kao so late.. I should have took the mrt haha..

Ya we took some photos as well and those who have the photos can send me mine thanks..

A little update about my cousin..

I think he is still in hospital and situation doesn't get an better from what I know.. New problems keep coming up after the operation but i guess that normal after such a major operation.. Just hope that he will be fine..

We will Win the World..

2006-04-20T20:38:00.000-07:00

We will Win the War..

The BAoc'06 has finally come to the end.. It was an enjoyable and fun orientation but I cant manage to really fully enjoy it.. You should know why.. That explains the reason why I couldn't find the mood to cheer whenever my og group cheered..

However I still like the experience of being in the orientation.. The atmosphere was really great.. The only pity is that I did not try to be part of the sub-com when there a chance.. Haha I just dunno la.. I always seems to enjoy doing things when I will get recognised more than being just a SC.. I only want to be the best, if not then forget it haha.. But of course, I know my limits and respect others so if somebody is better than me, i would accept not being the best too.. Aiya this is getting chim and im beginning to feel im talking rubbish..

To those who are concerned with my cousin, I thank you but there bad news.. The tumour is found to be bad and need a operation on monday.. 90% chance of success said the doctor but do continue to pray for my cousin.. Thanks.. Hopefully, he will win his war this time.. I believe he will.. Definitely..

Things Do Happen..

2006-04-16T17:47:00.000-07:00

Things Do Happen..

Water found in a person's brain.. Requires immediate head surgery in the middle of the night.. Seriously speaking, I used to think that these scenes also happen in drama serials till yesterday... It happened on my cousin out of the sudden.. Fortunately, the operation was a success and now we just have to wait for the report from doctors whether the sort of "tumour" holding the water is gd or bad..

I cannot forget what I saw ytd at children ICU ward.. Every parents were carrying a worried and sad expression including my auntie and the usually cheerful uncle.. This is the 1st time I saw my uncle with tears rolling down his tired eyes and I feel for him.. Touchwood but imagine your son who is only 15 yrs old suffering all this and you will know how sad it will be.. Anyone who feels that their life is miserable should visit the hospital ICU and you will realise you are actually lucky to be safe and healthy and should be glad bout it.. Never mind being poor or whatever, just be healthy and safe is of outmost importance..

I only pray that everything will be fine and my auntie dun think so much about it although it hard.. She a pessimistic person among my mum and aunties so maybe I hope she will be strong as needed..

I really began to treasure my life more now and I pray for my cousin..

PAIN..

2006-04-14T22:33:00.000-07:00

PAIN..

Went dye my hair and did some highlight as well.. And I must say it really painful for the highlighting part.. Maybe it because I went to those salon where they offer cheap highlight or maybe i got short hair.. But it really painful.. They put you on with a sort of like plastic covering with holes on your head.. And through those holes, they try to pull your hair out to highlight which is shit.. They are like trying to pull your hairs out using bare hands.. Imagine that.. I will never highlight again in near future..

Last Preparation Day..

2006-04-13T20:45:00.000-07:00

Last Preparation Day..

Okay today is our last preparation day for the orientation 2006.. I think im just a SB instead of being a SC.. SB is just student body, students who help out haha.. So maybe I got lesser CCA points but I dun care.. Considering I only went for a few meetings.. I find no motivation and enough passion to go for all those meetings..

However, im quite looking forward to the real orientation next week.. It should be fun..

可爱女人

2006-04-10T21:55:00.000-07:00

可爱女人。。。

舒妍。没听说过吧？
她是个台湾新人，真的非常可爱。
她不是很美但非常亲切，
我想我喜欢的她，也是这类型的吧。
哈哈！！

Fun Anagrams..

2006-04-06T22:45:00.000-07:00

Fun Anagrams..

Been reading Da Vinci Code once again since I have nothing to do.. It never fails to thrill me with the mystery and clever plot.. Those who read the book will remember this..

13-3-2-21-1-1-8-5
O, Draconian devil !
Oh, lame saint !

Yup, it actually the 1st anagram the Langdon solved.. It supposed to be..

Leonardo Da Vinci
The Mona Lisa

Here some of other anagrams that I found somewhere which is interesting..

Conversation --- Voices rant on
Dormitory --- Dirty room
The Morse Code --- Here come dots
Slot machines --- Cash lost in 'em
Snooze alarms --- Alas' No more Zs
A Decimal point --- I'm a dot in place

Okay i will save some more for my future post haha.. To keep my blog more interesting hopefully.. CIAO..

Is there 5 Viewers of my Blog???

2006-04-06T21:41:00.000-07:00

Is there 5 Viewers of my Blog???

Sometimes I really wonder if someone view my blog haha.. Anyway my blog isn't really interesting so I dun really mind.. Who will wan to see a blog full of complaints and with nothing interesting to brag about haha..

The fact that I hasn't been blogging is that I dun really have much to complain about.. Come on its holiday and im like slacking my life away but im a born slacker so im loving it although I can feel quite bored at times haha.. I need to invest my time on some courses liao.. That the way it should be for person enjoying singlehood like me..

PS: I think I need to delay my IPPT test again since I will definitely fail the one on 22 April 06

A New Look..

2006-04-04T22:12:00.000-07:00

A New Look..

Upon seeing my little japanese nephew pictures, I have decided to keep my side burn and try to have a new look.. Come to think of it, I like nvr ever keep side burn before la so I must try try see how I look.. Even if it doesn't look gd, I DUN CARE cos it easy to get rid of it.. Just cut it off lor haha.. So I have decided to keep long hair liao at least keep my side burn.. But the thing is my side burn now is like bald haha..

Premiership Race On.. Hopefully..

2006-04-02T00:07:00.000-08:00

Premiership Race On.. Hopefully..

Okay Chelsea drew with relegation threatened Brimingham and Manu won at Reebok, Bolton fortress and the gap between the 2 is now 7 points with 6 games left.. Although we still got the ever improving and dangerous Arsenal to face, our form and their champion league distraction would bring us a victory.. The race is certainly on..

Come on Manu..

April's Fool Day..

2006-04-01T14:18:00.000-08:00

Oh My God..

Experiencing a HEART ATTACK..

I Contributed Finally..

2006-03-31T01:04:00.000-08:00

I Contributed Finally I Feel..

I have to say im a bit nasty in saying the my BA group are doing craps with all the IDs for the freshmen next term in the past.. I apologise.. It actually quite a nice thing to do after I finally contributed in making those "craps" haha..

I contributed and so I dun think it crap haha that reality at its best.. Whatever it is, I could really see some of my group SC and ASOC are really doing their and putting their best efforts they could..

Nothing much these few days except for applying for Ngee Ann scholarship and a part time job.. However after hearing Peiting is submitting a resume for the job as well while im only giving my particulars haha.. Not much chance there liao I think..

The fact that my saving is depleting fast is a worrying sign and I really need more income besides my $120 tuition fees I earned, not forgetting the bus concession $52 and phone bill $38 that I need to pay monthly.. Which left me with $30 for my expenses.. Tell me where can i get 3 meals for $1.. No way.. It going to be worst if school starts cos then i really need to eat out.. So my friends, pls let me know if you all know of any students who need tuition.. Im available haha.. I hope i got the scholarship,

--Hope & Pray--

What Crap????

2006-03-28T21:06:00.000-08:00

What Crap????

Okay.. Received a sms from Ask&Learn which is a company that provides courses for NSF men in a bid to keep them on touch education.. I did my course and the quiz required then and now they told me I did not even login to their system.. Kao what rubbish.. I remember i still got a certificate la but I dunno where it is only.. So now I got to at least logon / complete course / submit quiz by 31st of March or else IM ON MY OWN.. Haha.. I wonder if it they simply lost our records or stuffs like that..

Whatever it is, I went to LOGON, COMPLETE E COURSE, and SUBMIT QUIZ at one go just now and im going to call them tomorrow to ask about my status.. And if they still say no, I will get good luck to them cos im going to give them shit cos by then it not my fault for not doing my part.. It never my part in the first place cos I pretty 200% sure i did the course and quiz and PRESS submit upon finishing the quiz.. KAO !!!!

Results Out...

2006-03-26T10:53:00.000-08:00

Results Out...

Results are long ago out last friday and I think I should be glad with what I got really.. It rather close to my dream grades.. Only FFA miss the mark I wanna hit so I dun have any complaints given the fact that I made some careless mistakes.. So it 4 more semester to go and with the results being consistent like my 1st yr result, I should be able to go to local university I hope, even at such an old age haha..

Realised that the holiday is going to end later than I thought.. Ya i know it should be a good thing to most but never to me cos Im dunno like how bored la haha.. Everyday got nothing to do and Im not as disciplined enough to start my IPPT training yet.. My mind is like set to go for RT if necessary cos I will only RUN when im forced to.. Im that lazy so what.. My medical history also back me up to be a slacker so I am what I am today haha.. I DUN CARE..

With all the time in the world, I began to realise also that I really need some changes to my wardrobe.. All my clothes are of my secondary period.. I need more clothes of my age.. Whether I look good in it is another matter and I DUN CARE either haha.. Besides, I need a bag, maybe a new big frame spec and go learn some skills.. One of it will be scuba-diving.. I really want that man and if i cant find any ppl to go with me, I may decide to join Ngee Ann Diving club next term.. Hmmm.. Not bad an idea isn't it haha..

I Miss Travelling..

2006-03-22T21:46:00.000-08:00

I Miss Travelling..

Natas Fair is around the corner during this coming weekend.. I really feel like going down and take a look but since Im not doing any travelling in near future, I see no point in doing so.. But I have to say I really miss travelling and experience new stuffs..

As of now, I really wish to experience a nice cool winter with snow haha.. It would be better to just go with someone I love but I dun mind go with my friends either now cos I haven find "The One" yet haha.. Santorini in Greece seems a very nice place to experience winter in and the scenery in Greece is simply awesome.. The buildings are also so castle-like and so bloody beautiful..

Haizzz, hopefully by next semester holiday, I would be able to enjoy some travelling with my friends.. Maybe not Greece which is kind of expensive but I dun mind going to Hongkong or Taiwan you know haha.. Hongkong should be cheaper ba and it not bad considering there Disneyland there as well.. Cool..

Drive that Message Home..

2006-03-21T15:51:00.000-08:00

Drive that Message Home..

Another article from Net Buzz..

MORE for your humour fuel tank, these were seen on bumper stickers:

* It's not hard to meet expenses, they are everywhere.
* Forget the health food. I'm old and I need all the preservatives I can get.
* Seen it all, done it all, can't remember most of it.
* I feel like I'm diagonally parked in a parallel universe.
* A day without sunshine is like, you know, night.
* Atheism is a non-prophet organisation.
* On the other hand, you have different fingers.
* Pride is what we have. Vanity is what others have.

2 of the best.

* How can I miss you if you won't go away?
* While this may not be on a sticker, it's something to remember when someone cuts into your lane: God's last name is not Damnit.

Just Close Friends...

2006-03-19T12:32:00.000-08:00

Just Close Friends...

I been thinking for few days now.. I really dun want lose her as a friend.. I realised that all along I should take most of the blame really.. I have no reasons to hate her anyway.. I got it wrong all from the start and I dun wanna be wrong in snubbing her as a friend too.. I talked to her about it and now i just hope we can still be close friends like before.. Hope everything wont turn out weird really cos I definitely dun wan that to happen..

I should have realised long ago that I shouldn't expect too much from her.. I hold no more expectations from her except to be forever friends.. I hate myself for not doing it earlier..

To her if she happens to see this, accept my apology for being so irritating these few days kk? Hope u still treat me as your close friend ya and dun find me weird haha..

It time..

2006-03-14T21:53:00.000-08:00

Its Time..

I had enough of being called names.. Many ppl may laugh at me for the situation im in now.. Ya then laugh all you want.. I beginning to be confused by what love is.. It should be sweet and blissful but it totally the different case for me.. I need something to work on and kill of my time.. I saw a show today..

It says :" as long as you have tried your best & she know how u feel for her, you should just let go if there no results."

Another quote from lovers in paris :" I dont want you to be a friend, if I cant win you over, I rather give you up totally."

Help !!!

2006-03-13T10:10:00.000-08:00

Help !!!

Im feeling terrible and I dunno what to do.. Should I just leave her alone? This is really shit feeling.. What do I really want??

Missing her..

2006-03-10T22:53:00.000-08:00

I MISS HER !!!

Kid Comebacks

2006-03-10T22:49:00.000-08:00

Kid Comebacks

TEACHER: What's the chemical formula for water?
DONALD: H I J K L M N O
TEACHER: What's that?
DONALD: You told us that it's H to O.

TEACHER: MIllie, give me a sentence starting with "I".
MILLIE: I is...
TEACHER: No, you should always say, "I am."
MILLIE: "All right. I am the ninth letter of the alphabet.

TEACHER: George Washington not only chopped down his father's cherry tree but also admitted it. Why didn't his father punish him?
LOUIE: Because George still had the axe in his hand.

TEACHER: Clyde, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same as your brother's. How come?
CLYDE: We share the same dog.

TEACHER: Harold, what do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
HAROLD: A teacher.

Net Buzz Yet Again..

2006-03-03T21:55:00.000-08:00

Guns better than Women..

Top 10 reasons why American men prefer guns to women:

10) You can trade an old 44 for a new 22.
9) You can keep one gun at home and have another for when you're on the road.
8) If you admire a friend's gun and tell him so, he will probably let you try it out a few times.
7) Your primary gun doesn't mind if you keep another gun for a backup.
6) Your gun will stay with you even if you run out of ammo.
5) A gun doesn't take up a lot of closet space.
4) Guns function normally every day of the month.
3) A gun doesn't ask: "Do these new grips make me look fat?"
2) A gun doesn't mind if you go to sleep after you use it.
And the number 1 reason why a gun is favoured over a women:
You can buy a silencer for a gun..

COOL.. And again, its taken from Net BUzz from the newspapers.. I love these articles haha..

The End of Poly 1st Year..

2006-03-02T19:24:00.000-08:00

The End of Poly 1st Year..

Exams are over and now it the results that worries me.. My results will definitely not be as good as my 1st sems..

These are the grades I set to achieve before exams..
FFA --- AD
Microeconomic --- AD
Business Stats --- AD
OCOM --- A
CIP --- B+
CATS --- A

These are the grades I be happy with after the exams..
FFA --- A
Microeconomics --- A
Business Stats --- A
OCOM --- B+
CIP --- B+
CATS --- A

Not bad isn't it but these are the grades that I may get in the end..
FFA --- B+
Microeconomics --- B+
Business Stats --- A
OCOM --- B+
CIP --- B
CATS --- B+

See the differences.. Ya.. Im damn disappointed with myself so DUN DISTURB ME !!!!

The Return..

2006-02-24T22:30:00.000-08:00

The Return..

Okay my blog will be damn shitty.. Good thing first, I finished my 1st exam microeconomic today.. Bad thing now, I think I failed in trying to achieve an AD for it.. Worse still, I calculated and I think im going to get B+ for it.. Worst of the worst, my calculation usually damn accurate.. Therefore, Im left with 2 chances to get my AD, FFA and Stats..

However, like I said b4, to get FFA to get AD, i cant really make any mistakes in my examination so it very very hard.. There leave me stats and considering i haven study abit for it, I think the chance is slim too.. So conclusion..

I will lose my position in the Director's List (Top 5%), meaning my chances of getting into local university maybe compromised and I dun wan it.. Bloody shit..

A Long Week..

2006-02-21T23:04:00.000-08:00

A Long Week..

It been a long week since i blog.. Actually im taking a short break from my mugging so I will blog for a little.. Been wanting to study but have no mood to during the past week.. Only managed to do quite a bit on FFA though still need to go through the theory and financial statements format.. I done quite a bit of past yr papers except for the financial statements part haha.. I will do that once the FFA exam is near..

Read a couple of topics of Micro last night and that about what I have done so far for my exams which is kind of little but I will do more these few days cos the exams are getting near and if I were to achieve the unattainable, i simply have to work harder than this.. Till then bye.. Hopefully the sms i received on 27 march will be one that has a couple of AD and a min grade of B+.. That would be ideal..

Interesting Article..

2006-02-15T22:37:00.000-08:00

No Problem Greater than Marriage?

Came upon this article in ytd's newspaper NET BUZZ.. Here it goes..

**Marriage Problem**
Wife: You always carry my photo in your bag to the office. Why?

Hubby: When there is a problem, no matter how impossible, I look at your picture and the problem disappears.

Wife: You see, how miraculous and powerful I am for you.

Hubby: Yes. I see your picture and say to myself," What other problem can there be greater than this one?"

**Daddy's Lap**
Son: Mom, when I was on the bus with Dad this morning, he told me to give up my seat to a lady.

Mom: You have done the right thing.

Son: But I was sitting on daddy's lap.

**Marriage Trouble**
Girl: When we get married, I want to share your worries, troubles and lighten your burden.

Boy: It's very kind of you, darling. But I don't have any worries or troubles.

Girl: Well, that's because we aren't married yet.

OMG..

2006-02-14T22:42:00.000-08:00

OMG..

Feeling lonely on this Valentine's Day and having nothing to do, I decided to take out FFA march 05 exam paper and attempt it.. Mixed feelings after doing the 1st two questions haha.. The 1st question is on Bank Recon and I managed to finish it very soon while "msn" haha.. Felt pleased with myself but then came Q2 on fixed assets..

Just in case you dun know, my fixed assets especially disposal and inventories are some of the topic that I haven really gone through it since lecture on those topics.. Therefore, I struggled doing Q2 and only get to finish it after like 1 hour which is so slow.. That when fear start to grow within me haha.. Heng I start doing today and got a wake up call.. I really need to recap on my disposal and inventories and of course some of INFA from last sems..

Whatever it is, i decided to leave Q3 till tml and search for some more papers to practise my fixed assets questions.. Think i will ask mrs lim for help here or maybe I will just do as many exam papers as possible (im trying to scare ppl here haha) and ask her to mark it once I did it..

Think I will need to start practise stats too and start to revise on micro liao.. Hopefully after the escape outing tml, I be focused enough to pia all the way le.. Die die also must chiong liao.. Chiong 2 week then holiday till siao haha.. That the way man.. Yay.. Looking forward to holiday even before the exams haha..

Today is quite sian but still, to all the couples out there, Happy Valentine's Day!!!...

Long Journey..

2006-02-13T21:55:00.000-08:00

Long Journey..

Wa piangz eh.. It really a damn long journey from Tampiness to Boon Lay.. It been a while since the time when I always suffer through it when I go tekong for duty.. Hate it man.. Heng got YongAn who pei me throughout the journey haha..

Got her cookies and frankly speaking, it quite nice although slightly too sweet.. Haha edible can liao.. But the look of it can be improved cos it look like _ _ _ _. Anyway, my flowers not very well done also and I ate her roche so it fair.. Doesn't have much chance to see her from now since CATS is finished so what I said dun really matter haha.. She too lazy to read my blog too so im safe..

Seriously no mood to sit myself down and really study like mad.. The stress level is increasing but it still not at a level where I will start to study like siao.. Maybe I will pick up some notes to read once in a while but definitely not sitting in front of my desk and mug whole day yet.. I gave myself a starting date - 15/02 to really start mugging but then again, I be going to escape to play till we drop before the real studying starts.. Im excited about the pirate ship haha..

Erm.. I think I should go do abit of the FFA paper that will be gone through this coming lecture.. Ya i still yet to set this friday tutorial any groups.. I be doing one though haha..

Counting Down..

2006-02-11T22:50:00.000-08:00

Counting Down..

It will be Valentine's Day 2 days from now.. Wish all the couples out there enjoy this special day with your loved ones..

It just another day for me though.. I would very much like to celebrate it with someone but there just no one who wanna spend the day with me.. Sad though but I will live with it.. Getting used to it anyway.. Made paper flowers for her but I kind of wonder why I did that haha.. It always nice to do something for someone you love.. But for my case, I always wonder why I did it after I finish the gift.. I mean, Im just a friend to her and if im going to make gift for my friend then I be busy like hell.. Whatever it is, it done so I will just give it to her in a big paper bag as she requested so ppl wont gossip ha.. It just shows how much she cares about what her bf will feel if he hears the gossips.. It hard for me to take initially and I feel like crushing those flowers and that it.. In the end, i didn't..

Nvm I shall stop here.. Never really got into the mood of studying yet and im meeting my friends later to play mahjong at my place haha.. Still talk about getting AD haha..

Target Setting Again..

2006-02-08T22:58:00.000-08:00

Target Setting Again..

Okay.. Realised I have more than just 2 taggers on my blog haha.. The 3rd person is VIP somemore thanks.. Okay if you see my tagboard, you will realise that Mrs Lim expect more than just A from me.. So if I only going to just aim for A, im kind of letting her down so here some my new exam targets.. Mrs Lim, I will work my socks off to try get AD.. MAY THE FORCE BE WITH ME!!!

FFA --- AD
Business Stats --- AD
Microeconomics --- AD
CIP --- B+ plz..
OCOM --- B+ hoping for A

Ya it always easier said than done.. But Im a person who like to aim high and write my targets down after failing in JC and it is bitter.. Another reason to aim high is that even if I dun get AD, I know it be ard A or somewhere near so it better.. Anyway there still a chance so as long as there a tiny piece of chance available, im going all out to get it..

Okay that it.. Will pen off here and STUDY liao.. If not how to get AD..

What Your Boss Really Thinks of You..

2006-02-08T01:10:00.000-08:00

What Your Boss Really Thinks of You..

Here one article that I saw on ytd Newspaper - "What your boss really thinks of you".. It really interesting so I share it with those who missed it..

Words in your yearly performance reviews -- What your boss really meant

1) Outgoing personality -- Always going out of the office
2) Great presentation skills -- Able to bullshit
3) Good Communication skills -- Spends lots of time on phone
4) Work is 1st priority -- Too ugly to get a Date
5) Active socially -- Drinks a lot
6) Independent worker -- Nobody knows what he/she does
7) Quick thinking -- Offers plausible excuses
8) Careful thinker -- Wont make a decision
9) Uses logic on difficult jobs -- Get someone else to do it
10) Express themselves well -- Speak English
11) Meticulous attention to details -- A nit-picker
12) Has leadership qualities -- Is tall or has a loud voice
13) Exceptionally good judgement -- Lucky
14) Keen sense of humour -- Knows a lot of dirty jokes
15) Career minded -- Back-stabbers
16) Loyal -- Cant get a job elsewhere
17) Plan for promotion/advancement -- Buys drinks for all the boys
18) Relaxed attitude -- Sleep at desk

Funny isn't it.. Anyway these are taken from Newspaper dated Mon 6 Feb under Net Buzz..

Surprise!! Surprise!!

2006-02-06T21:31:00.000-08:00

Surprise!! Surprise!!

Okay.. I think I really have nothing to complain today.. Got back my Oral Communication test paper and I dunno how I passed it.. I managed to fare not bad in it as well and Im really glad.. Oh nonono.. There still thing for me to say that I hate it.. I made a stupid mistake in stats test and it cost me the full marks.. Fark!! There alot of ppl doing so well for the test and it just makes me feel worse.. Next time i shall draw the diagram out.. I PROMISE!!!

Made Peiting real angry today but was forgiven soon after that.. Thanks!!! Sorry for being so insensitive.. I know ur grades mean a lot to you but it was meant to be a joke ya.. You know me.. I wont do it again though.. But again, my apology here..

I guess after presenting the last project for CIP tml, I should just get down to revision especially after knowing the business stats exam will be tougher than last and the fact that Im still not as confident in FFA as Vivian and still lacking in Micro.. I dun wan my A to leave my result slip and I have to ensure they remain comfortable in my result slip by working hard for it..

It time to throw everything behind and STUDY!!!

Hopefully, I can finish what i want to make for her asap.. But it look like shit if I do it fast haha..

Exams Starting in 3 Weeks Time..

2006-02-03T22:37:00.000-08:00

Exams Starting in 3 Weeks Time..

First of all, I just hope I dun get recalled back camp this period of time cos it be pretty bad.. Im having my exams and i need time to study cos I realised I dun really understand a lot especially FFA and CIP.. Still need to improve on my micro and business stats as well if I wanted to achieve my goal of getting A for FFA, Micro & Business Stats..

Today FFA tutorial was weird.. I dunno why our tutor Mrs Lim keep saying she dun wan us to see her next sems.. I know what she meant.. She don't want to see us fail FFA but the way she said it seems like if we see her next sems, we will fail FFA.. It just makes no sense.. That why I will try my best to get A for FFA and still see her next sems haha.. But A seems so far away.. The only module im in the A zone is stats but it seems everyone is in that grade cos the 2 tests are real simple and everyone did well..

So it time to really pull up my socks..

Out of the 6 modules, excluding S&W, I really feel I will get the most B+ for CIP and OCOM, maybe even C for CIP.. So I need to get 2 AD and 2A to maintain my GPA.. But knowing my test results, I can only hope and pray that I do well enough to get 4 A.. I'll be pleased if it really so..

Time left for me though:
Microeconomic - 3 weeks exactly
CIP - 23 Days
Business Stats - 25 Days
FFA - 26 Days

What time is it??? It simply MUGGING TIME..

Am I Doing Too Much???

2006-02-01T18:50:00.000-08:00

This is what I feel sometimes...

Am I doing things too late, too much????

Boring 2006 CNY..

2006-01-30T22:09:00.000-08:00

Boring 2006 CNY..

Maybe im getting old.. Maybe the excitement of collecting angbaos not longer thrills me.. The amount still does though.. I seriously dunno why but i just dun feel the happiness of Chinese New Year haha.. Maybe I dun like to gather with my relatives especially with my sister haha.. They will definitely say something like this..

"Wa your sister is so pretty and tall, why are you so different from her?"

I usually just keep quiet cos i dun wan to start.. But deep down inside I feel like hitting back.. So what if she pretty and tall and im different from her? It not even my fault.. You have to ask my parents why I look so different from her.. And beside that 2 points, I dun think I lose to her in any other way..

I just dun understand why adults at their age still cant speak with wisdom.. Didn't they spare a thought of how I will feel after that? Hai, Im used to it anyway and I wont be affected by all these stupid comments.. Besides, I know myself.. I have plenty of confidence in myself and obviously it wont take a hit because of some comments from some unwise people..

In fact, the only good thing about this new year is just the angbaos money though its very little.. Haha.. It just increases my ability to spend.. Cool.. Besides that, CNY sucks.. And im still wondering why I haven touch MAHJONG.. The title my army mates gave me really make me lonely.. "Wu Di Shi Ji Mo De!!!" Haha...

How Do I Feel Now???

2006-01-28T00:16:00.000-08:00

How Do I Feel Now???

Im feeling MISERABLE..
And I think my life is SCREWED UP..
F.U.C.K
It time to WAKE UP..

Left with OCOM before CNY..

2006-01-26T00:10:00.000-08:00

Left with OCOM before CNY..

Okay.. Realised not many ppl post on my blog liao and i dunno why.. Maybe you guys are getting sick about my pathetic life.. But I DUN CARE haha.. Like it or hate it.. Of course, you always have a choice not to see my blog..

So what happened these past few days???

I dunno how i passed my CIP test and im really happy.. I seriously feel this is the module that I will have a big fat C written on it.. I can only just pray that my projects are good enough to push it up to at least a B.. Been trying to do some catching up on my other modules cos i din do very well either for those and im quite pleased that business stats test today was easy.. Im hoping to get full marks..

Im not being arrogant or what.. I seriously feel many ppl will get full marks for this test and if I dun, what the point of talking about catching up right? I will just fall further and further away from the very top.. And I DUN WANT it to happen.. My mind is almost back on the track to where it should have been all along and im beginning to like the feeling going into exam hall brimming with confidence again.. And the most important thing, u came out of the exam hall knowing how to do all the questions.. That feeling is simply cool..

I will just stop here.. Just realised 1 of the shirt that i bought for CNY has a small hole behind.. WTF.. It the last piece maybe that why..

我最爱的可爱天使。。

2006-01-20T17:50:00.000-08:00

我最爱的可爱天使。。

我幸福的天使
闪闪发亮的我的天使，_ _ _
我真的很爱很爱我的天使。
但如果因为爱她
就折断她的翅膀
把她留在我的身边
那么她一定会失去生命。
展翅高飞吧，我的天使
当你飞累了需要休息的时候
再回来找我
不要忘了
我的心永远有你的存在
因为你是我心爱的可爱天使。。

Kim Tae Hee is so Cute..

2006-01-18T18:37:00.000-08:00

Kim Tae Hee is so Cute..

Been watching "Love Story in Harvard" and im like dripping my saliva all over for Harvard's library and of course, Kim Tae Hee.. The library is so gosu and Tae Hee is simply the cutest girl in Korean.. She now on par with my all time favourite Jolin haha..

Been saying this a couple of times liao but this is the final time haha.. After today, I will move on and leave this chapter of my life back.. Hopefully, I will find someone who loves me just as much as I love her like the korean drama.. But being a korean drama, you know how cliche it is haha..

If you are reading (maybe like few yrs later haha), hope you will still treat me as an important friend to you.. And 4 goodness sake, go for lectures and prepare for your test.. Need help? Let me know.. I always be there to help..

Everything not falling into places..

2006-01-17T17:10:00.000-08:00

Everything Not Falling Into Places..

Results were bad.. Real bad..
Life is not rosy for me either..

It just seems that everything is not falling swee swee into places for me..
No mood to finish up my assignments, always leaving till the last minute..
Dun even have a good sleep for the past few days..
There just too many "Why" in my mind at the moment and I dun have answers for many of them which is shit..

I guess I really need to care about myself more now..
I just dun wish to fail again..
I need to do well..
Need to get the slackness out of me..
Need to really get serious about my works..
Need to seriously think about my future..
Need to really get into action and not just talk..
Need to do lots and lots of stuffs..
Need to just treat HER as friend though my feelings for her will always be there at the moment..
Just wont take it as serious now haha..

All I ask for is to lead a simple and happy life with someone I love but it seems so hard and bitter in the process of achieving it..

How To Be Just Friends..

2006-01-11T14:51:00.000-08:00

How To Be Just Friends..

What the definition of being just friend?
I think I will not make her the center of my life anymore..
No more "sms"ing for nothing next time..
Dun need to have to know all about her..
I will just keep the feelings to myself cos I think im being a fool..
I just be back to being myself..
Anyway my care and concerns are redundant I feel..
I guess I will not initiate any sms or whatever anymore cos all are a waste anyway..
I guess I will just give up and move on cos I dun wan to look like a joke/fool anymore..

But as a friend, if ever she needs help, I will just help like I will for any of my better friends..

Im totally hurt by a girl I love alot but it time to move on.. No point hanging on to lost cause and be made a fool..

Testing..

2006-01-08T18:56:00.000-08:00

Testing..

Wanna test the paragraphing..

So this post is just a test haha..

School Starting..

2006-01-07T15:38:00.000-08:00

School Starting..

Finally the boring holiday is over and school starting.. Hopefully I can stop thinking about alot of rubbish and concentrate on my studies with all the major exams and works coming my way next term.. I want to do well so studies will take out most of the space in my mind.. I kind of lose faith in my love life anyway.. I've been like a fool so i will just let nature takes its course..

Come to think of it.. I used to keep all the sms she sent me but now, I only kept 12 out of few hundreds haha.. Maybe it will be more again but i doubt so.. Chances are higher that all will be gone soon cos her replies are getting lesser and mainly it all bout school works haha.. I guess i will reduce the number of sms i sent her liao cos i always feel weird if she din reply.. So dun send, dun expect reply, wont feel sad.. Yeah.. That the way to go for now..

Many ppl may think why the hell you put your life on blog and let everyone else see it.. Don't you feel something wrong?? Seriously speaking, i dun see any problems writing my life down.. It a way for me to write out how I feel and my fustrations sometimes.. And i found it quite useful sometimes especially u dun wish to talk to someone when u in a bad mood but u want to make it known.. So blogging is the best way to do it haha..

I dun care if my blog is boring or what.. Even if it is, not your business haha so do u think i freaking care.. Absolutely nope.. Im a Leo so basically, i just do what i feel is right and will make me improves.. And maybe it cos im Leo that my love life sucks cos Leo tends to be more demanding haha.. They need lots and lots of complements and praises from those who are important to them..

Excited about fencing training next week.. More commitments which is good cos i dun feel like wasting time thinking of pointless stuffs anymore... What's yours will be yours no matter what.. And maybe i deserve better haha..

Been raining recently and it kind of reflects my mood though it quite a nice weather to sleep in.. Hope the sunny, bright days come soon..

It's All About Control..

2006-01-06T14:59:00.000-08:00

It's All About Control..

Thanks to those who heard my complaints on my micro in any way..
I just need to vent out some of my fustrations..
It over and I will work on the 75% available..
I have control over my own life and I believe in my ability..
It may be harder but I like challenges..
I love it..
The satisfaction you get from achieving is just so sweet..
Besides, I have not lost the battle..
Maybe I should judge myself only after I got the final grade at the end of this sem..

Perhaps i should also set myself "target grades" 4 individual module like i did for my 1st sem..
I expected 2 Bs in my 1st sem but i got B+ which is nice..
Actually i did set some targets for myself but they are just not as clear or not as realistic this sem so maybe i should work on this..
Besides, it easier to achieve something first time than to maintain it..

But the thing is that I have not lost the battle and I simply hate losing..
Nobody like losing but to lose in something u know u could win is much worse and harder to take..
That how I feel personally..

What Im left with:
FFA --- 85%
Business Stats --- 80%
Micro --- 75%

Basically, I really want to get at least A for these 3 modules.. In fact, I want AD!!!!!

A Fustrating Day..

2006-01-05T19:18:00.000-08:00

A Fustrating Day..

Had a Microeconomic test worth 25% today and im feeling shit now..
I made a grave mistake and it could cost me a whole 5% of the paper..
I really hate myself of making that mistake cos it so bloody stupid..
Im like boiling u know..
I could have score rather well for the test i think but now i can only hope for an "A" score..
This is so damn fustrating..

I just dunno wat happen to me this sem really..
I had not made just mistakes in 1 but all 3 tests so far this sem and this just have to stop.. Imagine ppl got full score for their business stats test while i only managed 82%..
Relatively, it is shit..
Think im going to get kicked out of the director list and i will get further away from the most direct path to university..
Arghhh!!!!!!

Think i have to reflect on my mistakes and stop making them or i'll be wasting my grades in sem 1..
I may still have 75% to make it work but the plain fact is that i lost out here and it not easy to catch up with all those "monsters" (in terms of grades) in the director list and of course those who are lurking by the edge..

But now what i can do is to pray i do at least get an "A" for the test and work on the other 75% more..
But can I????
Shit, I just have to cos i really wanna go study in university and at least get a degree..
It may not gaurantee u success but it very important in society..

25% Instead of 10%..

2006-01-03T14:45:00.000-08:00

25% Instead of 10%..

Went to MEL after a long long while and thought that the coming micro test is only 10% but i was so wrong.. Its 1/4 of the module score and I realised I wasted so much time doing nothing and thinking of rubbish.. Freaking hell.. Damn du lan with myself now.. If i dun do well, i will seriously hate myself.. Fark..

No wonder the test format got so many things.. 10 mcqs, 10 T/F question and 3 short questions.. Bloody shit.. Need to get this holiday mood away from my mind and get serious on my work.. I dun owe other ppl so i dun need to care so much about others but myself.. I owe myself a success.. I having another go on it and I dun want to lose it.. Shit.. Think got to get down to work..

Spent $100 on clothings ytd but still feel i need more.. Feel my closet is damn outdated.. Even my room look dull.. Need to buy a mini hi fi to put some life into my room..

Year 2006 Resolutions

2006-01-01T13:49:00.000-08:00

Year 2006 Resolutions..

Got a couple of new year greetings ytd but the one i hoped for most never came.. Hai.. That why i never reply to those who send me the sms.. Sorry.. Im like waiting for just the one from a special person.. Anyway, i guessed as much that she wont send it so it kind of sad.. Knowing she wont send but u hope she will.. That feeling sucks but she apologised so im okay now...

So now let talk about my New Year Resolutions..
It the start of a new year but i can still remember the time where i post my 2005 resolutions haha..
I never get to achieve most of it..
So here am I posting what i wanna achieve in Year 2006..

1) Maintain my place in the Director's List in Ngee Ann

2) Train up my body & hopefully pass my IPPT
(this was my resolution for 05 as well haha)

3) Bank Acc to hit the 20k mark
(though it still very far far off, but will change if i strike TOTO)

4) I wanna learn scuba-diving..

5) Change a new closet for a changeover haha..
(its kind of hard haha cos no money so must strike TOTO)

6) Strike TOTO 1st prize
(so i can achieve my 3rd & 5th goal)

7) No more lonely Xmas and New Year Eve
(that is if i found the girl specially for me only haha.. Think im dreaming haha)

8) Not to be angry, sad or whatever negative feelings
(if i can do it, i'll be a SAINT)

9) I keep this as a secret cos its too personal haha
(Let ur creativity run wild haha)

10) Still thinking..

Nightmare Yesterday..

2005-12-31T16:42:00.000-08:00

Nightmare Yesterday..

I had a terrible nightmare yesterday..
I really dun wan it to happen cos i will be very down if it really does..
I cried for the 2nd time while waking up cos im like so sad in tat dream..
The first time i cried waking up was when i dreamt being thrown into a pool of aligators by my father..
But that was when im like pri 3 haha.. So the dream ytd was kind of shit..
Guess Im lucky not to have all these bad dreams for quite long liao till recently..
Dunno why..

Anyway, i finished doing all the links for my Macromedia ssignment and im only left with the FLASH part which im most worried about haha..

To someone who knows the dream, Don't let it happen pls...

Feeling the Urgency..

2005-12-29T16:18:00.000-08:00

Feeling the Urgency..

Hai Man Utd drew and Chelsea won again... So it 11 points away from the top spot for my favourite team.. Why cant Chelsea lose to make the Premiership a little bit more interesting??? And Man Utd, pls dun lose the 2nd spot to Liverpool or we as man utd fans will suffer if u know what i mean.. But seriously speaking, Liverpool looks like the only available 2nd team to win Chelsea.. Hopefully, they will do it in their coming fixture..

Beginning to start to feel the urgency to complete my works and study for test.. Been slacking from last week onwards and i only have completed about 3/4 of my myob.. Im left with the 2 manual report i have to make.. But the worrying part is the Macromedia Assignment and my Micro & CIP test.. These assignment are crucial especially for my CIP module.. Hai think i really have to start tonight..

I have shifted my focus back on studying more now but the holiday festive season is making me a slacker haha.. I really slack like shit haha.. Thinking of how to earn more money instead of thinking on how to complete my holiday work haha.. Im thinking of ways to gain more income during the coming Chinese New Year without having to take the risk of losing by gambling haha.. At the moment, Im still all blanks in my mind haha..

After watching some taiwanese variety show this morning, i realised the need for me to go train myself up abit more.. Having pacs on the stomach look really cool.. It not that hard to get it but i think it hard to maintain it given the way i eat and what i eat haha.. And of course, the amount of time i spent doing exercise wahahah.. But im going to try cos i seriously think i look so small-sized.. And with this size, i will always be seen as an overaged teenager.. But im a MAN now so that something to think about.. Somemore IPPT is coming nearer and nearer and it like laughing at me saying I will definitely fail.. Wish me luck haha..

That's all folk.. Hope u all enjo ur christmas and now let's look forward to Chinese New Year and hopefully, all of us will get lots of lots of Ang Baos.. Yeah..

Yama-Chan, if u happen to read this post, hope you enjoy the party tonight.. =)

My power colour..

2005-12-25T17:32:00.000-08:00

Your Power Color Is Lime Green

At Your Highest:
You are adventurous, witty, and a visionary.
At Your Lowest:
You feel misunderstood, like you don't fit in.
In Love:
You have a tough exterior, but can be very dedicated.
How You're Attractive:
Your self-awareness and confidence lights up a room.
Your Eternal Question:
"What else do I need in my life?"

What's" Your Power Color?

Merry Christmas!!!!

2005-12-25T16:26:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas!!!!

Merry Christmas to ALL... Hope the christmas eve ytd was an wonderful night for all of you and of course a very special day for you today, the very day itself.. Haha.. Merry Christmas to you again in Japanese, Meri- Kurisumasu..

As I said, I dun celebrate christmas and as such, i wont receive any presents but i got some for myself haha.. Bought 2 pairs of slippers and some nice accessories.. Come to think of it now, i think the slippers i bought look funny when i wear it.. Too colourful haha but i dun care.. In fact, I even went to school ytd to do my school work with Yong An.. How pathetic haha..

The days leading up to Christmas hasn't been nice either.. I nearly met an accident while driving home in a lorry and that is freaking scary.. The other driver just try to cut me at a very high speed when i was about to cut to the other lane as well.. Lucky i spot her car fast enough and prevent an accident that will put me in deep shit.. But i sprained my waist slightly.. Kind of painful that time but i guessed it fine now..

By the way, i think i dun really enjoy this school break.. No mood to complete my school works.. No programs to look forward to... Bought a game that cannot be played.. Nearly got into a needless accident.. Spending a christmas like any normal days of my life.. Hai.. Actually, i wanted to go learn scuba diving but there just no one to accompany me to go learn.. If really no one going with me, i guess i will go alone the next holiday haha..

Im trying to find some new songs for my blog.. If u guys have it let me know.. Thanks =)

I Need To Wake Up..

2005-12-23T19:16:00.000-08:00

I Need To Wake Up..

Went for CATS meeting this morning in school.. Ended up doing nothing much really beside knowing one of my group members got full marks for his business stats test and he did most of his macromedia assignment... I beginning to feel the urgency.. Feel that i really need to wake up and not always slacking or staring at my hp haha.. I guess i need a few more days for that feeling to really die off.. Im working on it..

Anyway, i think i need to concentrate on my works liao.. To keep myself occupied and not to think so much.. If im free, i will think alot of crap and what im thinking now is not nice for myself haha..

Guess my Christmas is going to be a lonely one again haha.. All my friends will definitely be out with their loved ones and Im all alone.. Arghhhh... But Im used to it already and i dun really celebrate christmas haha..

That it for today..

Karen, hope you like the Xmas card i made for you and thank you for your card too.. I like it a lot.. Thanks..

I Dunno How to Start..

2005-12-22T14:33:00.000-08:00

I Dunno How to Start..

This is shit.. After finishing teaching tuition, i went to take a look at my holiday works.. I wanted to start but i dunno how.. It is so discouraging.. In the end, i just throw all the works away and begin to slack.. Kind of shit right.. But i guess it should be okay cos it holiday now.. What really matters is i hand in my work once the due date is up.. I dun really care much at this moment of time haha..

Maybe when the due date get nearer, i will feel the urgency and get down to business.. For now, i should just slack my life away.. Singlehood at its very best haha..

Feeling Better now...

2005-12-21T18:27:00.000-08:00

Feeling Better now...

Im feeling much much better after spending these past few days playing my heart out.. And i spent quite abit shit.. I still thinking of buying a adidas jacket to go with the adidas sling bag i bought from Ruiqi haha.. I just love ADIDAS man.. And i think im damn lucky not to lose my phone at escape on tuesday.. Heng ah.. If not, need to borrow egg phone from u liao lan zhu..

Just hope my investment continues to bring in income for me.. If not, i be damn screwed haha if i carry on spending at this rate..

Oh ya, i also began to realise that there a lot of work to be done during the holiday so i need to get started soon.. 2 tests to be learned, MYOB assignment, Micro article assignment and the most feared macromedia assignment.. Arghhhh.. Hopefully, i can get the christmas card specially for her (as i promised) asap.. I think i did a pretty good job for now considering the fact i haven touch art for a more than half a decade..

Hey tokudaiji, your sakura very hard to draw & i cant bear to destroy her cute looks haha.. But hopefully u will still like it la considering the effort i put in.. Shouldn't tell you more haha..

Im slowly but surely climbing out..

2005-12-19T14:08:00.000-08:00

Im slowly but surely climbing out..

I think i should be fine after a few more days cos i got an ans this morning which helps alot in me making my final decision.. I will just stop messaging or call her so that i can forget all my feelings for her.. It be hard but i know i can do it.. I still have to get on with my life even though mine is rather unfair.. However, i think the time when the one up there is fair to me will come eventually.. I mean i should learn to protect myself more really.. Anyway, i think girls lose out on a really good guy in me if they dun choose me haha.. I dun think im not that bad as a lover after all and i know my girl will come sooner or later..

As for now, i just need to climb out of this well that i shouldn't have dropped into at the very beginning.. Like what peiting said, a crush and a 2.5 yrs relationship, u think u have a chance? Come to think of it now, i realised that very true.. I always said it better to be loved than to love someone more but i know i couldn't do that.. If i really love that someone, i will definitely love her more.. I would be damn freaking lucky if i could even find a person who loves me as much as i love her but i hope that girl will come.. If not, i dun mind being alone all my life but i have to be damn rich.. If not, that be damn sad..

It took me 2 months to get over a 1.5 yrs relationship so i hope it will just be a few days before i get over this little crush although i love her more than my previous girl cos she pretty close to my dream girl.. I hope i can get over it fast cos i think she make a good friend and i still very much like to have a cute friend like her haha..

No matter what, I still have my friends.. Plenty thanks to those who are there for me.. Thanks alot.. I will get over this and become a better and stronger man..

I Lost My Purposes in Life..

2005-12-18T10:26:00.000-08:00

I Lost My Purposes in Life..

Remember i told u guys me and her are just friends??? Yes she treat me all along as a very close friend.. It me who so madly in love with her.. It me who started it wrong from the very start.. It me who all the blame should go to.. I have only myself to blame..

Went to watch "Pride & Prejudice" with her ytd.. Especially like the phrase where the actor(Mr Dasi) said: "Im totally bewitched by you.. My heart and soul are all with you.. But if do not feel the same way, one word from you will quiet me down forever".. Being a love story, elizebeth (the actress) accept his love.. In reality for my case, i got the "word" that supposed to quiet me down.. That when my world started to fall apart.. I only managed to get to sleep with the help of alcohol.. Girl it not your fault cos im the one who should be faulted..

I shouldn't say more.. I dun want to be a joke here.. She a real friendly, faithful, unique girl and she look so damn cute when she try to imitate jolin "ye man you xi"

To "The Special one": Maybe i will write all about ytd down in a letter and pass to you.. I want you to know how I feel.. Just burn it after reading and it be gone ya..

2005-12-16T19:01:00.000-08:00

Yeah Hey Yeah Yeah
想到了第一次见到你
你有一种奇怪的魔力
我感觉到了自己偷偷想靠近你
想到了第二次见到你感觉我并没那么高兴
因为我发现自己和你的距离
这是爱情还是你太美丽
让我作出不可思议的事情
我只知道我要看你开心
我什么都愿意只要能够靠近你

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你开心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过
但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在那里

我知道你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜
所以我才静静守着你
每一次看他紧紧拉着你手我眼泪不停的流
我只好默默退后什么都没说静静忍住痛

想到了第一次见到你
你有一种奇怪的魔力
我感觉到了自己偷偷想靠近你
想到了第二次见到你感觉我并没那么高兴
因为我发现自己和你的距离
这是爱情还是你太美丽我像是着了迷
只要能够靠近你
我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你高心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过
但我什么都愿意不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在那里

我知道你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜
所以我才静静守着你
每一次看他紧紧拉着你手我眼泪不停的流
也只好默默退后我什么都没说静静忍住痛

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你高心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在那里

我知道你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜所以我才静静守着你
每一次看他紧紧拉着你手我眼泪不停的流
也只好默默退后我什么都没说静静忍住痛
Hey Hey

We Are Just Friends...

2005-12-15T09:15:00.000-08:00

We Are Just Friends...

Thanks Chip, I think i know what im doing..

Actually, we are just very good friends who both have a little crush for one another.. I love her but i know she loves me as a FRIEND.. So that it and i think i said enough haha..

Finally, I have completed all the tests for this week and i think i did badly for it.. It just not up to my standard.. I actually had a dream before my test and i dreamt about getting only 2.4 for my GPA for this term.. But of coure, im not going to let that happen.. Im not letting go of my place in the Director's list just yet so watch out for me haha.. I need to find back my competitive edge that is my main strength in 1st semester.. I need to find back that feel to spur me on to do well..

Lan Zhu, you can help spur me on too ya cos my biggest morale boaster haha..

A little bit about my FFA test ytd.. I did all my questions correctly in the first place.. However, i decided to change my answers after i checked for the second time.. I dunno why i change it.. Maybe it due to the fact that im not as confdent as im in my 1st term..That why, i need to set my priorities right to get that feel back, that little bit of confidence back..

That about all for now.. I couldn't blog more cos my lecture started.. It fustrating cos my desktop is still down.. Shit..

I think the song truly reflects me now.. Sly's Shou Yi..

Looking Towards Next Week..

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Looking Towards Next Week..

I have finished my bstats test ytd and i hope i get at least 40 out of 50 marks.. The paper was relatively easy considering it being an open book test but I'll be glad with 40 marks given how much i studied.. Haha.. In fact, im blogging during my ocom lecture now..

Will be having my FFA test tml and i have not studied a bit beside doing two past year question with the help of the answer keys haha.. Oh shit my lappy batt is running low so i will blg next time.. Wait for my next post wahaha...

Chip, i think im in a situation exactly as yours.. So how haha? Wish me luck man... It always nicer to be loved than to love someone..